I have been a photographer without a fixed location for much of my career here in Chicago. A permanent location never seemed in the cards for me.

As years went by, the vision of this passion would flare briefly when I displayed my photos in local coffeeshops, bakeries, libraries and other unconventional spaces.

I once had a charming space in a vintage building at a prime location in the Wicker Park area. As everything I earned was consumed by rent, I quickly learned the grown-up lesson about pricing my services appropriately!

Back to home base again, not only for financial reasons, but to do a deep dive into the inner self that kept sabotaging me, saying I did not deserve to be successful.

Seeking independence, going my own way, creating something different: the miasma of all these rejections seemed to hang in the air, clouding my picture of myself with my dream.

I did not know I had to keep seeing the dream in detail, no matter what my current situation said, no matter what painful memories I remembered, to eventually hear the clear quiet that guides my actions now.

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This included honest, updated assessment of that relationship as well. Five years after publishing this post, I have left this relationship.

But…using the emotional energy contained in memory that is able to be recalled and returned fully back to me, the enjoyment of life returned full force,

and a spectacular dream came true during the summer of 2024.

I love to share what opens energy around me, and am posting an original affirmation that also addresses the concerns around making increasing amounts of money.

There are different ways to use this gem:

1. Record it in your own voice and listen to it as the start to each morning.
2. Gently sit with each sentence and let the images and emotions and experiential memories well up, allowing the emotion to move through without resistance.
3. You can choose one sentence and use it as the inspiration to consider through the day.
4. Say it out loud during your morning walk in the park in the strongest, most positive voice you have.

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I choose now to heal my relationship with money and my finances.  So it is.

I release all resistance to where I am right now financially. 

I release being angry with or hating my current position now with money. I let this go now. 

I open myself to know that where I am now is only temporary, and I choose to fully embrace and accept where I am now with complete love so that I can create more money and wealth.  So it is.

I release all resistance to being broke, or not having enough money.  I allow myself to just be with it now. 

I open myself to know that if I embrace this now, and stop looking at my situation as bad, the energy will transmute and things can change.  I allow myself to accept it now.  So it is.

I release making being broke or without money wrong. 

I release the feeling that where I am right now is bad. 

I release all beliefs that I am a failure if I don’t have enough money.  I let that go and open myself to know that life is full of contrasting experiences just so that I can get clear on what I want to create. 

I open myself to know that “good” or “bad,” is just “desired,” and “undesired.”  So it is.

I release any repeated focusing on how much I don’t have.

I release all decisions to see, hear, focus and speak from scarcity, and I choose now to focus on all the abundance in my life.

I open myself to remember that scarcity and limitation doesn’t really exist anywhere but in my mind. I release it from my mind and focus and in every situation I choose abundance. So it is.

I completely and fully forgive myself for creating this current situation. 

I open myself to correct myself without blame, shame, or invalidation.  So it is.

I release all beliefs, agreements and programming from my parents and 5 generations back that making money is wrong for an artist, troublesome, and dangerous, and that I am disloyal for wanting to be rich.

I release all programming that money is scarce, limited, and hard to make. 

I release all memories from this lifetime and all other lifetimes of issues of and around money.

I let this go now, and I transmute all memories and unwanted energies into pure light… so it is.

I release my association of earning and having money and finances with emotional, mental or physical pain.

I open myself to see that money was never capable of hurting me or those I love. I let this go and see money and prosperity and creativity with new eyes. So it is.

I release all decisions, agreements and programming from this life, energy, and experiences that having lots of money is limited, difficult, hard, dangerous, and troublesome to have.

I let this go and open myself to remember that I am a powerful creator capable of creating and manifesting anything I choose. 

I choose to remember that all it takes is a simple shift in my focus. I remember this now and shift my focus accordingly. So it is.

I open myself to fully experience having more and more than enough money in my life. 

I open myself to experience being rich and wealthy, and I allow myself to have it now.  So it is.

I choose to put myself in the space of already having that which I want, so that I call it into my experience metaphysically first.

And I open myself to have fun with this, and to enjoy the journey. So it is. 

I now rest in abundance, I rest in having enough. I find my stillness in the space of well-being and in being, doing and having more. So it is.

After the affirmation, ’embody’ it –

Wiggle a ‘happy dance’ like a kid! Smile! Clap, jump and shake out your body!

BE thanks for the abundance you have now and what you already have experienced! Spread the good energy ‘sparkle’ around in your world!

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May this aid circumstances seen and unseen to bring abundance into your life.

Let’s connect through my Contact Page to talk about envisioning yours.